So I guess I should probably apologize for not having posted anything in what? AGES! So yah here it goes. I've promised myself that I think the best way for me to let everyone one know (well mainly myself) of what is to become of me I guess I should keep a blog. Well truthfully it's because I know that something and many amazing things are going to occur in my life this year! I can FEEL IT! A better way of describing it would be, you know that feeling you get when you are simply so inspired by something that it gives you the motivation to pave the way and work towards what you know is going to occur? Ok, I realize that this is probably not making any sense... How about I just tell it to you straight. You know how when you are young you have so many aspirations and dreams ? Well so do I and I have always known that I will become a performer. Or better yet a successful and famous actress. I'm not going to lie I like attention and I always have, however I'm not an attention whore. I would prefer that people pay attention to me though my talents such as acting, dancing, script writing, and directing. When I was younger, I always wanted people to know that I was there and not to miss me. However, as I got older that attitude has changed. Im finding now that I much prefer to be left alone. I would say that I am having a bit of an identity crisis.
A crisis in the sense that I don't know if being in University is the right thing for me. I'm not sure if I should have taken a gap year and gone to L.A. to meet with casting directors who were impressed with my acting skills when I was attending John Robert Powers. One of the casting directors (I will not state her name) told me this "You have a great future in acting!" Now you could say that that was said was simply a lie and to get my hopes up, but I beg to differ. When she said that to me I looked her straight in her eyes and she was telling the truth.
I hope that by moving to eastern Canada and by being near Toronto that I this summer I work towards my dream. If I make it then great! If I don't then perhaps I am destine to become a Psychiatrist. One of my friends the other day over skype told me "Ash, you have to choose. You have to make a choice. You can't have either (psychiatrist or actress). You have to choose soon." I told him that he had it wrong. Sure I have to choose, but I can still do both. Look at Mayim Bialik. She is a neurologist and an actress. So that just shows you that anything is possible and I know that with dedication and determination and of course sacrifice that I can attain my dream and make them a reality!
Until next time
ASHx
